la mala musings

Honestly, what I am about to recount was an experience that my body withstood while my spirit floated helplessly overhead. It was the first time that I ever willingly put myself into a situation that I literally had no control over. I was 17 and I knew it all, I had just broken up for the third time with my manipulative now ex-husband; at the time we were dating. My way of getting back at the ex was to do everything that we did together but with other people – the drinking, partying and rebelling against my parents. I remember I had roped my best friend at the time into coming with me for a night that truly influenced the woman that I am today. My misery so desperately needed the company. At this point of my rebellious 17th year , I began hanging around a family member who was then and is still to this day fighting many demons of her own, we’ll call her la prima. La prima was even more disconnected from her sense of self than I was, every single weekend she’d lose herself to drugs,...

What is Domestic violence? Domestic violence is a crime that almost always has no face or voice,  the victim negates their voice and the criminal remains in the shadows. Domestic violence is the monster that lives under each victims bed and breathes fire into their nightmares in the form of fear, depression,  anxiety, etc. Domestic Violence doesn’t always show up in the form of cuts and bruises on our skin, no the domestic violence I have known and lived is much worse and has produced a  gaping hole in my soul. I lived in a vicious circle of being abused day in and day out, not by physical force – which in my opinion would have been way better than the EMOTIONAL pain that I endured. My domestic violent situation came in the form of venomous words that cut me deeper than any sword could slice flesh. #DomesticViolence does not discriminate against creed nor color, it will not avoid any specific economic class. DV is kin of assault, harassment and even murder and the majo...

My wish for you is that you always know you are greatly loved and that with every setting sun and with every moon that cycles around our planet, there's a heart bigger than the galaxy that overflows with love for you. My wish for you is that you know in your heart that mama will always try to do her best to be there in every way that you need. My wish for you is that you always stand firm for what you believe in and that you fearlessly speak from the soul each time you express yourself. My wish for you is that you graciously overcome any obstacles thrown onto your path and that you do so with your head held high and always towards the sun. My wish for you is that you never allow limitations to be placed upon you nor should you allow these to hinder your perception of self. My wish for you is that you always have present that your mama would go to the ends of this earth just to ensure your peace and safety. My wish for you is that you always remember t...