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Where my #MeToo Started, I was 17 and I knew It All

Honestly, what I am about to recount was an experience that my body withstood while my spirit floated helplessly overhead. It was the first time that I ever willingly put myself into a situation that I literally had no control over. I was 17 and I knew it all, I had just broken up for the third time with my manipulative now ex-husband; at the time we were dating. My way of getting back at the ex was to do everything that we did together but with other people – the drinking, partying and rebelling against my parents. I remember I had roped my best friend at the time into coming with me for a night that truly influenced the woman that I am today. My misery so desperately needed the company. At this point of my rebellious 17th year , I began hanging around a family member who was then and is still to this day fighting many demons of her own, we’ll call her la prima. La prima was even more disconnected from her sense of self than I was, every single weekend she’d lose herself to drugs,
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What is Domestic Violence?

What is Domestic violence? Domestic violence is a crime that almost always has no face or voice,  the victim negates their voice and the criminal remains in the shadows. Domestic violence is the monster that lives under each victims bed and breathes fire into their nightmares in the form of fear, depression,  anxiety, etc. Domestic Violence doesn’t always show up in the form of cuts and bruises on our skin, no the domestic violence I have known and lived is much worse and has produced a  gaping hole in my soul. I lived in a vicious circle of being abused day in and day out, not by physical force – which in my opinion would have been way better than the EMOTIONAL pain that I endured. My domestic violent situation came in the form of venomous words that cut me deeper than any sword could slice flesh. #DomesticViolence does not discriminate against creed nor color, it will not avoid any specific economic class. DV is kin of assault, harassment and even murder and the majority of the ti
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My wish for my three

My wish for you is that you always know you are greatly loved and that with every setting sun and with every moon that cycles around our planet, there's a heart bigger than the galaxy that overflows with love for you. My wish for you is that you know in your heart that mama will always try to do her best to be there in every way that you need. My wish for you is that you always stand firm for what you believe in and that you fearlessly speak from the soul each time you express yourself. My wish for you is that you graciously overcome any obstacles thrown onto your path and that you do so with your head held high and always towards the sun. My wish for you is that you never allow limitations to be placed upon you nor should you allow these to hinder your perception of self. My wish for you is that you always have present that your mama would go to the ends of this earth just to ensure your peace and safety. My wish for you is that you always remember that although yo
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s u n f l o w e r

It is in the same peculiar fashion that sunflowers only turn their faces up towards the sun that I am drawn into nothing that I understand and everything that fuels me. Just as a sunflower, I uncontrollably point my face to all that is light, love and clarity. Just as those deeply rooted into the soil, I am aided to rise from the dirt - the sky is the limit and once I reach my undetermined height, I begin to bloom. I bloom into beauty, I bloom into strength and most of all I bloom into the creation that my ancestors before me nourished and loved on my soil for. I trust in the sun to provide adequate love and care to me, I embrace the soil that supports me and I bask in the fruitful growth of all that is me. I take after the nature that surrounds me and I never question the process, I simply just am.
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On Taking Affirmative Action & Responsibility Of Our Lives

So, when a theme becomes repetitive in my life I feel a responsibility in a sense to shout it from the rooftops! I personally am in a total transitional phase in my life - there is a major shift going on in love, career and family life and I can attribute nearly all of it to the shift in my mind and how I have been taking control of what serves me and I have been releasing what doesn't. The transformation within me did NOT happen over night and it will not occur this way in you either; however, it all starts with taking personal responsibility. And before I delve any further into this topic - I will tell you right now that I don't have it all figured out and this is a topic that needs constant attention and divine nurturing. We all have the power to live the life that we have always dreamed of, fall in love with the person that we have manifested in our minds and feel at peace knowing that our lives truly fulfill us - we ALL deserve this. But along with deserving this, we m
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clarity in nature 🌿

Disapearing into the woods without a trace ignites my soul, there's something about getting lost just to find yourself that is so beautiful. Today, I wander but I am not lost. Today, I reclaim myself for who I am and not what patriarchy wants to make me believe I am. It's in these moments of solitude that I can breathe deep into mumma earth and feel the pulsating of the ground beneath me. It is in this moment that I am able to grab hold of the woman that is She, the one who has always lived deep in my soul and was nearly forgotten about. Today, She is awakened in me. Today, she has shaken me to my core and She reminds me that the outside world is not what defines me - nor has it ever. My creatrix power has completed its long period of dormance and She is ready to shape with her hands and mold mind and her soul I am her and She is me.
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An Open Letter To The Person Dragging Me Down

Today we got into it, just like any other day except for the fact that you were drunk and more verbally abusive than normal. During the day, we had a heart to heart in which I thought you were being sincere. You told me you feel so bad about yourself for being such a disappointment all of your life which is why you turn to beer  Which deep down, I know is just part of the pity party you throw yourself daily. I told you that everyone that you have disappointed throughout your life doesn't give a shit anymore because they are out there living their lives, the ones you are disappointing the most are your kids and I. You were speechless, so I thought we had some sort of a breakthrough. As the night went on, I watched a movie with my little ones,  eventually falling asleep on the couch while you sat in front of the house and drank maybe 8 bottles of beer and half of a bottle of wine. When you decided you wanted more, you woke  me up out of a dead sleep trying to convince me about how i
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